Is this withdrawal?

I can’t seem to get up and do anything. I’m really struggling today. I just keep thinking everything over in my head but not actually doing anything. I’m craving masturbation. I want to act out. I’ve been doing a bit of edging which isn’t too healthy. I have lots to do, but I don’t want […]

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I just thought about looking at CL ads again. Maybe because there’s what looks like a cute Asian girl in the lobby… I’m telling my controlling child that I don’t need to do that or look at porn to deal with that.

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Just saw a couple of attractive women running on the trail, noticed a nipple or two and I just said to myself “aw fuck it lets just jerk of today” I’m thinking this way because I just saw FormerFriend?, an old/former friend and that brought up some pain. This whole morning seems kind of painful.

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Stream of consciousness…

This is my attempt at journalling my stream of consciousness.  As thoughts pop into my head I am writing them down throughout the day.  Well see if it works. Need to donate part of my severance to God. 11:28 AM – Thought about checking out CL. There’s got to be a way to capitalize on […]

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