I feel anxious and overwhelmed. I feel a bit angry and powerless. I feel that my struggles with MyWife are futile and hopeless. I feel like things are never going to get better. I feel ashamed. I’m going to send my family disclosure to my cousins and I’m scared to do that. I don’t know […]

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Monday Morning

So I didn’t get up at 5:00 AM. I didn’t get up till just after 8:00 AM. In order for me to get up that early I am definitely going to have to get to sleep before midnight. I am at Method Coffee right now. I have read Our Daily Bread – didn’t get much […]

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I just thought about looking at CL ads again. Maybe because there’s what looks like a cute Asian girl in the lobby… I’m telling my controlling child that I don’t need to do that or look at porn to deal with that.

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Just saw a couple of attractive women running on the trail, noticed a nipple or two and I just said to myself “aw fuck it lets just jerk of today” I’m thinking this way because I just saw FormerFriend?, an old/former friend and that brought up some pain. This whole morning seems kind of painful.

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Back At The Apartment

I’m back at the apartment, I have a moderate level of anxiety this morning. It was nice to spend some time with MyWife and the dogs. I’m mulling over what to do about this Company interview? Should I do it? It would be nice to get all my stuff back up here. Although there is also the […]

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Stream of consciousness…

This is my attempt at journalling my stream of consciousness.  As thoughts pop into my head I am writing them down throughout the day.  Well see if it works. Need to donate part of my severance to God. 11:28 AM – Thought about checking out CL. There’s got to be a way to capitalize on […]

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